Posted by Fantasized emotions appearing real

i think i did a mistake in naming my blog " im happy"
i am not happy! my happiniess is never lasting! its always for a short period of time that i am happy! my smile often fades away in seconds! i am always cursed.. i am always blessed with sorrow! though i try thinking positive.. its not happening! i try smiling but eventually its turns out to be a frown! what do i do.. i have become a victim for so many other things.. so many other people..
i nowadays dont think straight.. i hurt a lot of ppl.. i don make them smile as i always used to.. its all changed.. life is totally a hell now! wanna leave this hell! what do i do!??!!