Posted by Fantasized emotions appearing real


It is very random of me to think something like this about me. But i so wanted to put it down here. I very well know how I was and how I am. The kind of change that I expected and I kind of did not. India was a place that gave me unconditional and selfless love, no matter how bad a person I was. So many people I knew were good and caring. I always felt special. Though I did not realize the happiness I had, I still was happy with the sadness in me. Honest. Perhaps, I realize that now, here, when i have no body to look up to though many pretend to be nice to me or something like that. For, I cannot blame them, as they know me no better than a stranger on the road. I have started thinking about my school days, when I was such a nice person, and knew that. But now, I can never relate myself to that personality. Don't know why. I know I need to change, remove the negativity in me. But, I really don't know where to start. But keeping in mind some past incidents, I have no choice but to change myself for my own good.
I want to remove the negative energy that I can feel in me.
I will.

note- have written complete words , not sms language as told by priyaa. thanks pri.