Fantisezed emotions appearing real

I am egoistic

Music is Sex

Standing by the window
Eyes upon the moon
Hoping that the memory will leave her spirit soon
She shuts the doors and lights
And lays her body on the bed
Where images and words are running deep
She has too much pride to pull the sheets above her head
So quietly she lays and waits for sleep

She stares at the ceiling
And tries not to think
And pictures the chain
She's been trying to link again
But the feeling is gone

And water can't cover her memory
And ashes can't answer her pain
God give me the power to take breath from a breeze
And call life from a cold metal frame

In with the ashes
Or up with the smoke from the fire
With wings up in heaven
Or here, lying in bed
Palm of her hand to my head
Now and forever curled in my heart
And the heart of the world


Dream Theater

Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "life is too short,"
"the here and the now"
And "you're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have i lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?

If i die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because i believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What i know to be true
But i know that i still have to try

If i die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because i believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

"move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because i am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear"

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that i'm here
It's perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If i die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because i believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on



Dream Theater
Scenes From A Memory
The Spirit Carries On
Music by dream theater
Lyrics by john petrucci

The shortest was was fought by Britain against Zanzibar that lasted for 38 minutes.
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I miss this guy called ram.

41% of the moon is not visible from the earth at any time!
:)

Astronauts get taller when they are in space.
:)

Less than 10% of criminals commit about 67% of all crime.
:)

It is against the law to burp, or sneeze in a certain church on Omaha, Nebraska!
:)

In many cases , the amount of storage on a record able CD is measured in minutes. 74 minutes is about 650 megabytes, 63 minutes in 550 megabytes.
:)

I was reading facts and some really unknown things to me in my iphone..
I wanted to put them down here.

This day of my life, i realize how hard it is, how disheartening it is, how painful it is , how dreadful it is to be alone. I have never realized the importance of people around me for i was always with them. My friends. I realize now how people face loneliness and the fact that they cannot change it for a period of time and they have to live with the hope that they soon would be fetched by someone or the other to show some tiny-winy bit of love. For people who know me, I've always been this girl who loves to be out, socialize, "hang out", work, and make lots of friends. But this is the day i realize how many mistakes i have made to face this day of loneliness. This day, where i stand looking at myself depressed and alone with no shoulder to cry on and listen to me vent it all out. I have no one now.
Will i always be stuck here, in this four walled room or ever come out of with a hope of love.
I hope. Some day , someone will bring me out .
I realize.
I hope.

i really don't know what to say when someone asks me, "do you REALLY love me?", " do you SERIOUSLY love me?". Also when someone says, " i love her SINCERELY". I always wonder what the other person is trying to say. I am confused.

My first winter ever.
Was a hectic day. All day school and no play.
It was raining like no one cared.
But all i could see was little happiness being shared.
The leaves were beaming with selfless joy, the clouds all grey and the grass all posing with pride. I boarded the bus and all i could see was black jackets and overcoats.A mother suffering with her little ones in the stroller did not complain but was telling stories about the rain. The bus was full but there was something that added to the crowded buzzing bus. It was the foggy little rain drops in the windows. Everything outside looked blurred and out of focus. How i wished i had my camera! With Rahman singing "new york nagaram" in my ears..all my past cherished memories flashed.
I saw a little happiness today.
The rain made my day.

It is very random of me to think something like this about me. But i so wanted to put it down here. I very well know how I was and how I am. The kind of change that I expected and I kind of did not. India was a place that gave me unconditional and selfless love, no matter how bad a person I was. So many people I knew were good and caring. I always felt special. Though I did not realize the happiness I had, I still was happy with the sadness in me. Honest. Perhaps, I realize that now, here, when i have no body to look up to though many pretend to be nice to me or something like that. For, I cannot blame them, as they know me no better than a stranger on the road. I have started thinking about my school days, when I was such a nice person, and knew that. But now, I can never relate myself to that personality. Don't know why. I know I need to change, remove the negativity in me. But, I really don't know where to start. But keeping in mind some past incidents, I have no choice but to change myself for my own good.
I want to remove the negative energy that I can feel in me.
I will.

note- have written complete words , not sms language as told by priyaa. thanks pri.

life seems to be right at times and wrong many a times! ummm... dont really know where it is going to end! but im sure.. one corner of my heart says, its all going to be fine sooner or later. im waiting for that day.

finally.. out of the godforsaken land for good.
toronto is good. i like it. nice people. a totally different culture. a super planned city. settling down slowly. nice weather.
but above all the im seeing evolution. a change in everything i do. a drastic change in me and i am likin it.everythin is so well organised. the traffic,the roads,the malls, the weather report, the police rules, the signal fines, the culture, the seat belt thing, the friendly atmosphere, the yucky food, the respect that one man has for the other, the shitty music that they listen to, infinit cars, rebates.. phew.. its only week now in toronto and i ve observed a great deal of change form the east.
cant say i would settle here.. but i really miss chennai,. and would go back one day.