Posted by Fantasized emotions appearing real

its been sometime i socialised.. been quite sometime since i went out with my usual bunch of fun-loving friends.. life seems strange now.
been very busy with shooting and been having health problems on and off. i quit my job. now sittin jobless at home. never been like this before.. never been this jobless.. not that i dont want to work.. i dont feel like.. life seems empty without a lot of things. things i wanted to stay forever disappeared in no time. but one thing that has evolved in me is the capacity to take things and understand them. i have developed this quality of tolerance dont know from where. now there are very few people around me who i talk to. i always used to be surrounded by people but now, im lonely but not alone. i seem to enjoy this. i seem to understand the purpose of lie at last. i understand that life is not only about love but also hate, not only about relationships but separation, not only about wants but also needs, not only about happiness but also gloom, not only about friends who care but also about loneliness that teaches you to survive. im kinda happy now. with few people around me im learning a lot of things. i have applied for masters in advertising in sheridan, toronto. leaving in july. excited about it. mostly, going to leave all the good-bad memories behind. leaving for good as my friend ram once said. now i know how true it is.
hope i find my right track and drive through. i pray whoever, to give the courage to face all the hurdles i am going to face :)
wish me good luck!