Fantisezed emotions appearing real

i think i did a mistake in naming my blog " im happy"
i am not happy! my happiniess is never lasting! its always for a short period of time that i am happy! my smile often fades away in seconds! i am always cursed.. i am always blessed with sorrow! though i try thinking positive.. its not happening! i try smiling but eventually its turns out to be a frown! what do i do.. i have become a victim for so many other things.. so many other people..
i nowadays dont think straight.. i hurt a lot of ppl.. i don make them smile as i always used to.. its all changed.. life is totally a hell now! wanna leave this hell! what do i do!??!!

you all must be wondering why i have put up a picture of a band called public issue in my blog.. yeah.. the band that has greatly influenced me and affected me.. a very different band , with different genre and with a very different outlook about music..
they play rock.. progressive rock, jazz, blues, and every kind of experimental music! first time i saw them play was at unwind, adyar. amazing talents, extraordinary feel and most importantly their chemistry n stage! just loved them.. and still do! their biggest inspiration is mr.big and dream theater and taq..and...dave mathews... and few more..
to talk about their compositions.. phew.. his blog is not enough! truly mind blowing..they just come up with terrific compositions which no one would ever predict! one such song is called from the top.. starts wit a very peppy feel and goes to jazz and metal and blues! wow! simply superb! and their song called !xobile! is all time fav!
now moving on to the members of the band.. christo on the vocals.. a very versatile singer..amazing voice culture and very cute fellow! he can still improve on his vocals by practicing(no offense.. i still love the way you sing!)he is studying something in m.c.c.. and hardly attends coll! lol.. hes usually refered to as the "kuttu yaanai"( small elephant.. damn cute).
next comes nipun nair.. a versatile guitarist.. genius ...and amazingly talented! love his riffs and his patches and his tones! hes the creator of music !! truly a genius!
and next is tibu/ vinod .. everyone's fav bassy! ppl wonder how flwlwessly his fingers move! he is gonna hit the peak soon!
and next is the baby of the band.. hehe.. vinay , the drummer! lol.. very nice fellow.. tremendous hidden talents.. you'll have fun watching him play.. too good~!
ummm... this band has changed my life!

its good to see my blog page again after a long period of tome for my computer was screwed!! im so happy now!! missed u all out there!! had so much to write in this short while but unfortunately my access to the computer was nil but now,, ill put down everything!! yaaay!
love u ppl!