Posted by Fantasized emotions appearing real

itS been quite sometime i sat in my room and thought about something deep and heavy! aha.. yeah..im serious! past few months was a jolly roller-coaster ride for me. had the happiest of days and very few sad and sorrowful times! but now.. those days have vanished..no more freaking out with the same set of friends i had..no more of jolly movies with them..no more of secrets unrevealed..but..i can see a beautiful, sparkling, extremely calm and virtuous angel with a stunning bright light shining like a halo.. she with her arms wide open is ready to embrace me and take me to the path of happiness..to the haven of wisdom...to the garden of love..! do i go with her???
but.. i still don't know what i need..i know what i want but that doesn't make me a complete human being.i first NEED to understand my needs..what kind of a person i am? what is the purpose of my life..? why am i even living in this treacherous world of demons and devils?? why am i here!!?
past has to be one's experience.. future has to give one hopes..present is the reality.. but what lies within is confidence...
i have started realizing what lies within me..let me gain confidence!:)